Pslam 119:171-172

No matter how many boys try to capture my heart, my daddy will always be the number one man in my life (besides Jesus, of course!). He has taken care of me in endless ways, and I hope to find someone that is like him, in all the right ways. This weekend has been a revelation in a sense of soul searching. In a few months that seemed like a moment, I have changed, judged and been judged, assumed, and wondered if anyone in this teeny-tiny town cares about lil' ole me. I have learned that I do not need a boy to complete me or make me happy. All I need is Jesus... and my daddy.
As I arrive back home from Overflow, I realize how much Jesus has blessed me regardless of the situation. Although my voice is about to give out from singing for over an hour and a half, I am still overflowed with God's grace and his mercy and his presence. It is absolutely amazing just singing the simplest of songs and really listening to the lyrics. "Take my life, all of me ... Take my heart, and let it be thine." Wow. With the words of our mouth and the meditations of our hearts, be pleasing to You. It's almost scary to think that we are surrendering our entire lives, our secrets, our habits, our morals, lives, to Jesus Christ. One hundred percent. It is so hard for me to live by this because we walk away from church or whatever church-based function, and we forget about the words to the songs or the message we hear, and we go back to our comfort zone, whatever it may be. We forget that God is with us all day everyday and at times, our actions reflect our heart. It is so hard for me to surrender everything to Him, and trust that He will take care of me. My independence gets in the way. How can I trust someone I have never physically seen? But I have faith that overrides this silly issue. One day I will see my Creater, Alpha and Omega, and I will know my purpose on this earth. And no one can love me more than Jesus.