Mark 9:23

I wish I was able to trust God as easily as those in the bible were able to. Imagine: you're blind your entire life, and Jesus Christ, the wonderful Savior, simply puts his thumbs on your eyes, gently rubs in some mud, and bam, you see. How amazing is that?? I cannot imagine how much exhilaration and excitement I would have if I was able to be apart of such a miracle. Or, when one of His deciples talked about walking in the sand. Instead of being alone, Jesus was carrying him. My Daddy told me this story when we went to the Bahamas twelve years ago, and it's funny how I remember certain moments and memories of my childhood. I have no clue how I would get by each day without knowing that I can fully, and completely, trust God and know that he'll take care of me. Period. As my selfish self yearns for silly things, I have to refocus myself and realize that He will take care of me regardless. Sometimes my plan is not His plan, and I have to trust that everything will be okay. Too bad Tinkerbell played with my fairy wand and caused it to disfuction, haha. I know that one day I will step into graduate school and become a Speech Language Pathologist, meet the man of my dreams, and start a family. Faith and trust have me wishing for it just a little too quickly. I've even been trying to talk myself out of wanting a puppy. It's so hard to see the little boogers running around Stillwater, and they're just too adorable. So, I'm thinking that next semester I'll bring Abby, my maltese, up here and get a good dose of experience, haha. That will definitely talk me out of it! I should be studying for my two tests next week, but being a procrastinator is so much more entertaining; not to mention I finally finished watching the finale of "Secret life of an american teenager".
This semester has definitely been a tough one. It's been a whirlwind of trials and tributes, wondering why everyone has someone, and I'm stuck here. But I have to remind myself constantly that God will provide me someone when the time is right. I cannot force or rush anything, because I know how that can turn out. Simply stated, I just have to trust.