2 Corinthians 5:7

There was a story I once heard, where a man was walking through the forest and there was plenty of light for him to see. He asked God for faith, to allow him to only trust Him. Suddenly, the light went away, the darkness filled the forest, and fear filled the man's heart. When we walk by faith, and not by sight, it is much harder to trust God to lead us back home.

This verse has been tugging on my heart because as I do not know where I will be attending school in three to five months, I feel like I am the man in the forest, unable to see the path that's leading to where I'm supposed to be. There have been so many times where I see and know where I'm going, and I tend to overlook the One that was in charge of it all. There are other times where I question why God let me wander into the darkness. And through the struggles, I realize that it was so I would learn to travel back on the right path. There are so many times when I feel like I'm in the dark, and all I have is a candle with a flickering flame. But, when I fully trust in God and allow Him to guide my ways, the little flickering flame becomes a torch; suddenly I can see the path.

The unknown is scary, and I am not sure how I would have made it without His constant patience to counteract my stubbornness. All I know is that His word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path. A few weeks ago I had the chance to look back at my old journals, starting from my Sophomore year in high school. As I giggled and smiled to myself about all the silly drama, I noticed there were a lot of dark times in which I did not know where to turn, or who to turn to for that matter. If it wasn't for God constantly being by my side, I'm not sure how I would have made it through these past... 9 years? Gosh, I feel old.

Life is like a novel. We're excited to start a new chapter in our lives, tempted to skip to the end, and engulfed in the present because we wonder if it's ever going to be the same.