"Do not let your heart envy sinners, but always be zealous for the fear of the Lord. There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off. Listen, my daughter, and be wise, and keep your heart on the right path."
I absolutely love when Jesus shows me a verse that I need to read and soak up. Whether it's materialistic things, lively thing (this time, a puppy), or love, Jesus is always here to remind me to not be jealous of what others have, but always yearn and seek God. A lot of people mistake "fear" for being negative, in this context, when in fact, it means the opposite. In this situation, God is explaining that being reverent, being in complete awe, to be completely devoted is what He wants. For me, it has been wanting a puppy. I know that realistically, this would be a very bad decision, both financially and time-wise. I know that once August 16th hits, my life will be at the surrender of the speech pathology master's degree world. There are also days where I envy others who are married, or who have children, but I need to be reminded that God has a plan for me, and His plan will begin in that regard as soon as I am completely ready for it. I have done the relationship thing in the past on my own, and I have decided that it's His turn to do the looking. This, of course, is a very difficult thing for me to let Him do because He made me stubborn. But, regardless of that little minute detail, I am letting Him guide me along the path I call life. In the mean time, I am learning more and more about myself as a young woman, growing in God's love, and continuing my journey through grad school.
On the flip side, I recently learned that I received good grades on my midterms last week! Woohoo and praise Jesus! :) And to be completely honest with you, the whole prayer thing works. When you completely, honestly, humbly, and gratefully let God take care of the worrying and help you to soak up the information needed, it's an amazing sense of accomplishment looking at it from the other side. As I continue on my next challenge of putting together a notebook's worth of abstracts - over 75 to be exact, I will continue to let God have the upper hand on this task. Without Him, it's really hard for me to have the motivation to be productive and successful. I have tried the "Me" thing, and after a while, "me" stinks, lol.
I'm completely sure that if I didn't let God take care of my life, I wouldn't be where I was today. I would probably be somewhere behind a fast-food or restaurant counter unhappily married, with kids, or either, and be wondering "what if". I was thinking about all of the choices I have made, and all of the people that have affected my life, and it's mind-boggling how much certain circumstances and people can affect our lives.
For example, if I hadn't have met Sarah in preschool, I wouldn't have had such a great friend to this day. If I chose to sit with the people on the "cool" side of the table, I would have not been as close to Megan. If I wouldn't have gotten into a silly fight with Melissa, I wouldn't have met Amanda, Viet, Amy, or Lauren. If I hadn't have chosen to be in the Band, I wouldn't have met Chris, Cody, Duggie, Sam, or Jack, and I wouldn't have dislocated my knee, which would have eventually led me to Drew. If I had not have chosen to leave band and journalism, I wouldn't have become a trainer and met everyone on the football team. It's amazing how such a simple decision as meeting a new friend changed my life, and I could go on with more personal stories of how different people have affected my life - for the worse or the better. If I would not have met Drew, I wouldn't have screwed with my GPA and would have joined a different sorority other than Phi Lamb, and that would have definitely altered my college experience. I wouldn't have become friends with Meredith, Stephanie, Kate, or Jeremy. Without Phi Lamb, I wouldn't have met Jen, Sarah, Emily, Amanda, Calli, Erica, Katie, Kristen, Nikki, Gabby, Laura, Erin, or Blair. It is the experiences we go through and the people we meet, that can change us for a lifetime. It is equally important to stay on the right path with Jesus. He'll always lead us down the right one.
Now that I am in grad school at NSU, I pray that I continue to meet the right people, make the right choices, and guide my life as smoothly as possible through this process with God's help. He is, after all, the one that brought me into this world, and can take me out of it. And although there are some days where I say, "Alright God, I'm sick of this world, I want to meet you now in Heaven," there are other times where I feel like my life has just begun and I can't wait to begin a new chapter in my life. I would never trade the situations I went through or the people I met, because they shaped me to who I am, and I thank God for everything.
Much Love,
Kelsea Lauren
On the flip side, I recently learned that I received good grades on my midterms last week! Woohoo and praise Jesus! :) And to be completely honest with you, the whole prayer thing works. When you completely, honestly, humbly, and gratefully let God take care of the worrying and help you to soak up the information needed, it's an amazing sense of accomplishment looking at it from the other side. As I continue on my next challenge of putting together a notebook's worth of abstracts - over 75 to be exact, I will continue to let God have the upper hand on this task. Without Him, it's really hard for me to have the motivation to be productive and successful. I have tried the "Me" thing, and after a while, "me" stinks, lol.
I'm completely sure that if I didn't let God take care of my life, I wouldn't be where I was today. I would probably be somewhere behind a fast-food or restaurant counter unhappily married, with kids, or either, and be wondering "what if". I was thinking about all of the choices I have made, and all of the people that have affected my life, and it's mind-boggling how much certain circumstances and people can affect our lives.
For example, if I hadn't have met Sarah in preschool, I wouldn't have had such a great friend to this day. If I chose to sit with the people on the "cool" side of the table, I would have not been as close to Megan. If I wouldn't have gotten into a silly fight with Melissa, I wouldn't have met Amanda, Viet, Amy, or Lauren. If I hadn't have chosen to be in the Band, I wouldn't have met Chris, Cody, Duggie, Sam, or Jack, and I wouldn't have dislocated my knee, which would have eventually led me to Drew. If I had not have chosen to leave band and journalism, I wouldn't have become a trainer and met everyone on the football team. It's amazing how such a simple decision as meeting a new friend changed my life, and I could go on with more personal stories of how different people have affected my life - for the worse or the better. If I would not have met Drew, I wouldn't have screwed with my GPA and would have joined a different sorority other than Phi Lamb, and that would have definitely altered my college experience. I wouldn't have become friends with Meredith, Stephanie, Kate, or Jeremy. Without Phi Lamb, I wouldn't have met Jen, Sarah, Emily, Amanda, Calli, Erica, Katie, Kristen, Nikki, Gabby, Laura, Erin, or Blair. It is the experiences we go through and the people we meet, that can change us for a lifetime. It is equally important to stay on the right path with Jesus. He'll always lead us down the right one.
Now that I am in grad school at NSU, I pray that I continue to meet the right people, make the right choices, and guide my life as smoothly as possible through this process with God's help. He is, after all, the one that brought me into this world, and can take me out of it. And although there are some days where I say, "Alright God, I'm sick of this world, I want to meet you now in Heaven," there are other times where I feel like my life has just begun and I can't wait to begin a new chapter in my life. I would never trade the situations I went through or the people I met, because they shaped me to who I am, and I thank God for everything.
Much Love,
Kelsea Lauren
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