"Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. ... By faith we understand ... that what is seen was not made out of what was visible."One thing that people may know about me is that I love crayons. When I was younger, I remember begging my mom to buy me coloring books, and I would spend hours just coloring. I guess it could be seen as my "guilty pleasure". As I am trying to find a cool picture of crayons, I come across this one. Obviously, this artÃst had a little too much fun with his/her creativity, and decided to carve crayons.
Faith is like those gaps in the crayons. We can't feel the space, but we can see and feel the end results. God made such a beautiful world from nothing. I think this is so crazy to comprehend because I can't even make something out of nothing without the right tools. And even then, it's not perfect.
As I am moving forward on my grad school journey, I've been taking time each day to write something in a journal - whether it's one sentence, paragraph, page, or even novel-worthy. I've learned that a lot of the success and accomplishment I have achieved has been because of faith. During the eight weeks of summer session, God provided me endurance, patience, "inner-nerdness", determination, confidence, and humbleness. He was there when I fell down on my face into my bed crying, "what in the heck am I getting myself into?" and He was there whenever I pompously said, "alright, God, I got this, I don't need you." Just whenever I get cocky, God gets His humor going and says, "alright, little child, let's see you do this without Me." You can see where that heads.
God has been here constantly when no one was looking, and whenever I would literally be walking around my apartment because I didn't want to be academically productive. I know that this semester will be much more different, and I am excited to move forward and be able to put the teachings I have learned into practice. I know it's not going to be easy, nothing is easy. I know it's going to be a challenge, but I'm ready for it. I'm ready to prove a certain group of people that I am here because I deserve to be here, I am made to be here, I can accomplish anything I want to. I want to prove them wrong.
It's hard to imagine the crayons before they were altered, just like it's hard to for me to imagine my life before I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. It's easy, but painful, to remember specific memories and choices I made in the past.
Blessings and struggles go hand in hand. Without the other, neither can exist.
Much love,
klc
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