No matter what, persevere.

May the Lord direct your hearts into God’s love and Christ’s perseverance. -2nd Thessalonians 3:5

"...All I wanna do is walk out of this place
But when I am stuck and I can't move
When I don't know what I should do
When I wonder if I'll ever make it through...
 I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising Your name..."
-Keep Singing, MercyMe

Stress has been escalating over this week.  Not only has my school site somehow been infected with the plague of sneezing, coughing, and sore throats, but I have felt the pressure of doing my best during therapy.  When I first started this blog, I wanted to incorporate my experiences and lessons and apply them to God's teachings.  If I touched one person, then I call it a success.  My whole goal was not to make this about me, but about Him.  I guess I can break the rules once...

Over the past seven weeks, I have been interning at an elementary school.  With over forty-five kids on a caseload, I have been given a small dose of reality.  So long story short, my supervisor suggests that I prepare for therapy early since I'm not going to be there on Monday and I won't have any time to prepare beforehand.

As I'm looking at each child's four-eight goals, and how they are similar to their peers in a particular time slot, it overwhelms me.  I suddenly questioned if this is what I am supposed to be doing in my life.  So I took a second to breathe.  I know that I am still learning, it's just that my stubborn and independent nature wants to believe otherwise.

It may have also had to do with my supervisor wheeling her chair over five minutes later to where I was sitting and asking what activities I want to do, as if I have these goals memorized.  Maybe it had to do with the fact that all of the materials are technically "not mine", so I don't want to just go digging around trying to find something to do.   

Thank you, Pinterest, for giving me some amazing ideas.     

I feel as if I have already failed.  Learning is not about failing.  My supervisor's boss told me that you can only look forward; you can't undo the past.  No matter what, persevere.

Much love,
Kelsea